aren’t i supposed to feel something?
Breaking up with your first boyfriend is supposed to hurt, but then why don’t I feel any pain? There’s no heartache or longing or regret, just indifference. I keep waiting for every expected emotion to hit me all at once and shatter me, but that moment has yet to come. It doesn’t feel like anything’s different. Maybe it was because for the last four months, there wasn’t anything substantial to long for. But I still can’t help wondering if I’m suppressing something. It just doesn’t feel right. Isn’t there supposed to be some type of mourning or sadness? If there is, why don’t I feel any of it? Is there something wrong with me?
